Searching for meaning

Life may not ''Look Like'' what you wish, but actually every prayer got answered, no worries.

Sometimes we wish for something, but it did not come true,  then you doubt: What is going wrong? Maybe just because I am not that talented, I am not that good..... I am not deserve the best.....

Let me tell you: You are WRONG. Follow the steps I suggest you as below, try your best to be aware and honest, let's start.

***Please prepare a pen, few pieces of papers, maybe a feather or crystal or whatever makes you feel ''safe''.

(1) Take a slow deep breath, if you need to touch the feather or crystal or whatever you bring to here, just touch it or hold it, there is nothing should or should not.

(2) Ask a question: What I need to know in this (specific) situation?

(3) Write down the feeling, what comes into your mind, just write it down. There is no judgement, do not doubt, just trust, trust your first feeling, first word, first emotion.

(4) Write as much as you can, if there are not much to write, no worries, just trust, it is ok.

(5) Go through your paper journey, you may want to read it all, then you can check: How do you feel right now? Relax, let the feeling comes in.

(6) If you want to cry, talk, silence, it is allowed. Remember, there is no judgment.

If you feel it is make senses, feel right, feel better even tho just a little bit, it is GREAT! This is your first baby step to stay closer to your truth.

Maybe you wonder - ''What is the Truth? I have a stable life, what truth do I need? What extra shall I need?''

Dear, there is nothing extra, they are all needed by time to time. I can talk about it for an hour so let's get back to this topic later. :)

So I hope that the ''First Step Ritual''does help you feel better, and now I would like to point out a thing that you may feel familiar but kind of unreachable.... It is- ''I have all I have in the material world, but I am not that happy nor unhappy.''

What does it means? Your friends may tell you that you should be happy for your life, life should live with flaw and nothing perfect blah blah blah... For me,  yes nothing is perfect but at least, you should feel happy about what you are doing.

You may think life is short, you just close one of your eye to pretend you are happy and feeling ok, and another eye open to see your robot life.

Life is shorter than we think, but when you are stuck in the middle, 1 day is long enough to drain you off.

I may not making sense to you, but if I make sense to you, HERE, that means you better not to cover your eyes till you die. Wake up your soul.

What is next? I leave the blank space for you to think, but remember, you are not alone. I will keep writing and posting. :) If you need more support, informations, lights, please come back to me. 

Training myself to be a healer, please stay tuned and much love.

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Thank you

xoxo