Separation is completion

Sometimes, the most import things might be last thing we are willing to look at, guess this is too hurtful to face it? Guess this is too huge for our small ego mind? In my point of view, it is because the most important things mostly related to the most biggest pain we had. It is non-sense, nothing make sense, nothing linked, and totally no clue WHY. Until one day, my heart, body, mind and emotion are all fed up at a certain level, and can't help to seek the right path, direction, things to go and do.

If you are honest enough to yourself, you must reach your brightest path. I am frank, rebel (I just like 100% frank and simple, rules bullshit  me a lot, this is how I think about rebel.), truth seeker, truly aware of my feeling and also the outer world, these makes me totally sensitive, and I cannot hide my intuition. So that finally I am here, to type this article to express my little feeling of my journey that I had in this weekend. Big thanks to my humble and beloved teacher- Ms. T.

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Spiritual thing might be not a common things in Hong Kong, and clearly it is not a mainstream in this commercial world... (I do not want to say this...). So most of my time I just hide it, because I saw some strange reactions and my inner side was not mature enough to handle this ego world, judgement etc, I could not explain myself then I gave up. I back to the normal side, got my full time job, keep changing job, because I could not find any fulfilment, I forced myself to accept my job but I was so lost... I even cry everyday and I found out later that my team-mate can see my sad face clearly, how embarrassing ( but really, thank you for the attention I had, even tho it is so little ).

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I am not saying I am special, I am so special to not working as a normal person, I can, but I am empty. And if you have watched ''The Benjamin Button'', please try to get the meaning and be aware of the ending part- ''Some people is born to....'' 

I feel like I am at my half part of my life, and if I still could not really face my truth and admit it, I will be regret (after I have experienced another very painful surgery and some personal issues, I realized life is REALLY damn short). I listen to my teacher, my message, my heart, follow my feeling, my inner compass, and keep my space clear, filled with light and those people I choose, most of the time I stay alone to reflect, I don't need anything to fill my emptiness, loneliness is the best medicine to cure my emptiness, I commit to myself, no rubbish, only truth, even tho it is hard to handle, I lost some ''friends'' but I trust this is meant to be, no coincidence, I aimed to make this happen. I value my time, myself, my energy and choose who I would like to share my caring and love. I slowly rest up, still pretty harsh for me but better than nothing, I am grateful.

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I may not have 100 good friends, some of them maybe think that I am a bitch, but it does not matter, because I love myself the most, I need myself more, no one can take myself away from me. I am not gonna let them take my power away, this is not free. 

I forgot how and when I told myself to back to my spiritual side, and admit that I really want to be a healer, I really forgot. God leads me, I listen and follow the message I had from my dream without noticed it, all the things just happened so naturally. Even myself, I cannot explain every details but I just allow this happened to me, I am just in the river, let them flow me to where I should be.

Jump into another new again, because I had to. I had my very first brand new spiritual workshop this weekend, which I don't think I will take it before. I open my door, then the divine offers me what I have to take.

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I bring my tarot card with me everywhere now, in case, I need it if I meet someone who might need some advices or need some lights. Tarot card is not a game, it is a tool to allow me to see the truth, truth will be spoken through me, message will be shown to me and then let me show to the people. It is a treasure. 

Everything has a spirit, this is not meaning a ghost here, I mean the energy, the soul. I am SO glad to meet my power animal and spirit teacher these two days, I solved my problem, found my answer which have been bothering, hurting me for all these years. No joke.

I have no clue why me to experienced such a hurtful separation, this affecting my whole life.... till now, even everything is getting better and I am protected but still, I lost my senses of belonging, and I just had no clue why I am here?????????

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I asked my main question today which I did not planned, I did not even thought about it, I did not prepared for it, I swear for it. But something just bump into my mind and Ms. T suggested I should ask, then I give a try.

Pardon me I could not share the whole story as I have to protect myself, but, this made me cried and crushed my heart in a good way. The answer I got is- The separation is needed. I better experience the separation earlier, there are a lot of separations in the future. Separation is completion.

This perfectly explained my whole story, no more no less.

I want to stay, but I know I could not, it is extremely for me to accept this fact, but I can understand.

I am not so ready to write up my feeling of my future right now, but I have some ideas already. I am chosen, and I chose to accept it. I am glad I know my mission clearly now, no more uncertain, no more unsure, no more ego....

I welcome my spirit teacher, power animal, friends and teachers, of course my family. All the pain and tears, love and hate, time and life.

THANK YOU.

There is no separation, but completion.  

Love you all.

What question you?

I wonder what is the meaning of friend. What do you think?

I believe my life is turning into another page, a brand new page which is about Courage, Brave, Self-Care, Self-Love, Confident, Independent, Grounded.

Isn't it beautiful?

I wonder how long would a human learn to love themselves? There are a lot of reflections to telling them the deepest truth, they only have to be really honest to stay still and face it.

I wonder how spiritual I can be? There are a lot of things I love to learn. I should explore more to feed my curious and thirsty soul.

Life is turning into a new direction, a leap of faith lead me to where I want to go, and where I belong to, this sense of belonging that I have been longing for a years.

What can make people keep waiting instead of give up? I think, because of love.

To be bold to doubt, to ask, to question, because I found nothing is 100% right or wrong.

I have many angels around me, devils has no space to come closer, they are afraid of truth and light, and we angels all shining bright and no bullshit.

I knew the white horse is my animal, and today I got the confirmation which made me very happy. He is clean, sharp and arrogant but very kind to me.

If you look back, you will realize how far you have gone through, and you will be proud of yourself.

Death is what gives life a meaning

Be confident, look at the camera straight. 

November is a magical month for me, 11 is a lucky number for me indeed(what is yours?)

Everything comes back and sit at where they should, everything started working out as they should once I commit to my own mission, I am honest to my passion and I felt no fear to tell people what I am doing.

Really, do not be afraid to speak what you believe, keep a good attitude and be humble, people will respect you, because you respect yourself. 

I keep on meeting right people, not a great amount but they are certain, important, bright and meaningful, to me. Everyone I meet is a meaning behind, it is like playing a mess, you keep jumping into a right place, right step then keep reaching my dream, working out my path, to where I long to be.

God, Universe are really watching out of me, very well.

I gave Reiki, never thought that I would do it, even tho I have learned it since 2011..... I gave Tarot Card Reading, never thought that I would do it again, even tho I was SO passion at it since 2001.....

What I wanna say it, DO NOT give up on your passion, dream, truth, because when you keep refusing your own wish, passion, dream, you are going nowhere.

I wish to share my love and energy with you, I am a learner and I am a giver. Trust my heart, trust my soul, trust my hands.

I could not finish Doctor Strange when I was in the air a couple months ago, and tonight I watched it with myself and I feel great. This is called Timing, when I am ready, I can understand what I have to understand.

The Ancient One said she has been experiencing many many many days to protect the planet, gone through many many many dangers, deaths and harms, and what she longs for is appreciating a moment with snows, to see it and feel it in real, her moment. 

We live on the earth, so long but so short, let go of the fear to be fail, instead, embrace the strength we have and work it on.

I like this line a lot: ''Death is what gives life a meaning, to know your days are numbered, your time is short, you think all of my time maybe I am ready, stretching one moment to watching these snows.'' - Doctor Strange

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Searching for meaning

Life may not ''Look Like'' what you wish, but actually every prayer got answered, no worries.

Sometimes we wish for something, but it did not come true,  then you doubt: What is going wrong? Maybe just because I am not that talented, I am not that good..... I am not deserve the best.....

Let me tell you: You are WRONG. Follow the steps I suggest you as below, try your best to be aware and honest, let's start.

***Please prepare a pen, few pieces of papers, maybe a feather or crystal or whatever makes you feel ''safe''.

(1) Take a slow deep breath, if you need to touch the feather or crystal or whatever you bring to here, just touch it or hold it, there is nothing should or should not.

(2) Ask a question: What I need to know in this (specific) situation?

(3) Write down the feeling, what comes into your mind, just write it down. There is no judgement, do not doubt, just trust, trust your first feeling, first word, first emotion.

(4) Write as much as you can, if there are not much to write, no worries, just trust, it is ok.

(5) Go through your paper journey, you may want to read it all, then you can check: How do you feel right now? Relax, let the feeling comes in.

(6) If you want to cry, talk, silence, it is allowed. Remember, there is no judgment.

If you feel it is make senses, feel right, feel better even tho just a little bit, it is GREAT! This is your first baby step to stay closer to your truth.

Maybe you wonder - ''What is the Truth? I have a stable life, what truth do I need? What extra shall I need?''

Dear, there is nothing extra, they are all needed by time to time. I can talk about it for an hour so let's get back to this topic later. :)

So I hope that the ''First Step Ritual''does help you feel better, and now I would like to point out a thing that you may feel familiar but kind of unreachable.... It is- ''I have all I have in the material world, but I am not that happy nor unhappy.''

What does it means? Your friends may tell you that you should be happy for your life, life should live with flaw and nothing perfect blah blah blah... For me,  yes nothing is perfect but at least, you should feel happy about what you are doing.

You may think life is short, you just close one of your eye to pretend you are happy and feeling ok, and another eye open to see your robot life.

Life is shorter than we think, but when you are stuck in the middle, 1 day is long enough to drain you off.

I may not making sense to you, but if I make sense to you, HERE, that means you better not to cover your eyes till you die. Wake up your soul.

What is next? I leave the blank space for you to think, but remember, you are not alone. I will keep writing and posting. :) If you need more support, informations, lights, please come back to me. 

Training myself to be a healer, please stay tuned and much love.

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Light in the darkness

We live a world with a lot of judgment, since leaving comment is easy as breathing, and giving a personal advice is easy as breathing too, so it makes more people living without awareness.

It is dangerous if we live without awareness, why? Imagine yourself is a robot, I do not mean you have to conquer a kingdom, to be a warrior, but I need you to speak with heart, walk with heart, see thing with heart, eat with heart...

Where is your heart? Call upon your higher self and to connect with yourself again and again.

I am looking for a place with more hearts, mindful, soul.... maybe it does not exist, but I insist to look for it. Or maybe I have to create my own hub, to group more minded like people, united.

God has plans for us, angels is everywhere, we are part of them.

I care your truth like I care myself, I love your beauty like I like myself, I believe in love, equality, humanity.

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Angels on the Earth

There are a lot of emotions going through, but what I wanna share is Love and a Grateful Heart.

I trust in love, and also trust in fate. People meeting each other is some meanings behind, do you think so?

I need a woman mentor, then there are some comes to me, one of them are so close to me and being very protective. She surprised me and I am glad to have her advice.

She said if a person is confident, he/she does not need to against to protect their own space, instead, he/she just simply stay calm and be himself/herself.

And we are talking about God, we think God sends people to the earth is to be an Angel, no matter what area you are staying in like fashion industry, entertainment, immigration company etc, there are devils so this is why angels there. 

We are both highly self-aware, so when I rise up my self-awareness, I see think clearly, then speak in a good timing to make things better.

Trust is also very important, if we lost trust to ourselves, we could never make our miracle happens.

Lastly, forgive ourselves, we pay off.

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I am the lucky one,

Good people always around me share their good energy with me, what I do not need just rid off naturally, without cares.

I choose love, what about you?

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Choose Happiness. 選擇快樂。

有時候，就是突然間迷一迷，然後問自己：「到底我在做甚麼？」。然後又會發現，其實都沒有甚麼事是過不去的，因為，下一秒已經到來，然後又會覺得突然開朗了。

我意思是，人生如時間，所有事都正在進行中，無論你的狀態如何，所有事和人或情感，都被推前，所以，就好好地活一場喔，還有的是，需要選擇快樂。

We feel doubt sometimes, and then question: ''What I am doing?'' Actually there is nothing can stop you to go through all the difficulties, because the next second is yet to come.

So what I mean is, our life must go on, everything is on the flow since the time keep pushing us to move forward, whatever your situation is, how do you feel or what is really happening, we are all pushed to the next second, we move forward. 

Live a good life, and choose happiness, we only live once.

Thanks to my dear photographer: Mr. Sakura Chun

She is my muse

She is my Muse- Dua Lipa. She reminds me to be myself fully and do not give a FxxK to how the world think of me. Just go ahead to do what I feel right, make me happy, and to be really beautiful.

Life is always shorter than I think, I do not know why God keep giving me this idea, but probably he wants to me to be more grounded, and do not waste time.

I had a talk with a girl friend which I feel that she can understand my feeling somehow, I told her that my energy is not much enough to allow me to speak indirectly, so that I have to be so honest and crystal clear for what I want, and speak directly.

Time is limited and it is a treasure to me, like how I invest my time and what/who I invest to is very important.

I also realized my gut feeling is always right, even tho some friends may not agree with me (I do not need their agreement.), but I always right, as no one is wearing my shoes so how could you know what I am experiencing? Back to the point, if a guy friend touched my improperly, there is NO friendship between us, and do not think you can fool me twice. 

Meant to be- there are quite a lot messages everyday for us to understand, and my message I have is- Forgive. To forgive those from the past, let go of myself and carefree to have a better life. OK, I got it.

I look different, it is a very funny feeling that I can see myself that I look different. 

I can see energy, I can tell you fortune, but...... I do not want to connect with you.....

係愛呀哈利 It's love and faith

I found life is a truly, truly and extremely interesting.

有些人，你從不會想過會再相遇（因為腦袋沒有那個空間去多想），但是就是某年某月某日，無端的再見。

言語於我來說，幫助不到我去說清楚，但倒是一個很好的渠道去讓我舒發。

有緣再重遇，我知道是有一點點的安排，所以沒有抗拒。或許是沒有意義的，但是，我就是幾這些經驗去用作自我量度之用。

對比起三年前的自己，原來已長大不少，是真的成熟了的那種長大。回想起過去的，那時候真的想不到有這一天去回味。苦的日子很難捱，也是挺多的，但是，我也沒有放棄過自己，一直的用功去找回自己。

那點頑強的意志，就是來自不認輸的心態，和絕對相信愛的態度。很感恩。

想不起是怎樣的活過來，就是保持信念，一天一天的走過去吧。口說要接受自己，去愛自己，說了七年，今天終於做到了。

那一份自信，自在，自愛，真的誰也拿不走。甚麼不在意別人的想法，終於在今天初嚐了。甚麼不安全感，也遠離我而去了。活在當下這一招，真的十分利害。同樣，愛的力量也是極利害的。

我說的愛，當然是來自愛自己的人，但是，愛自己的力量是利害很多，這可使你無堅不摧。

這次的文章比較鬆散，因為都是比較日誌形式的。

不知道，有沒有人跟我一樣，有同樣的感覺呢？

Live with Hope 跟希望一起生活

Live with Hope 跟希望一起生活

Hope is what keep us alive, same as Love, they are so important.

We all can chase what we hope for, nothing is limits, all is unlimited.

Are you dare to make your dream comes true? Or only live an average life? We all uncomfortable for something in life, so why don't we take the uncomfortable feeling and chase the passion, chase the dream? 

Don't live with the uncomfortable feeling and being regrets.

If we are unbalanced, balance it back, and repeat.

Much love. Much love to all my friends and followers.

希望是令人活著的重要原素，這跟愛一樣偉大。

我們都有追求夢想的力量，這是沒有限制，這是無限的。

夠膽量實現夢想的人，總有能力去一步一步的實踐他們偉大的願望。這在乎你想要夢想生活，又還是過得去的生活。

還有，要懂得看生活中的小確幸。

無論是夢想的生活或過得去的生活，當中都帶著「不舒服」的感覺，因為這都是帶動你到「你要去的地方」。那麼，無論怎樣，你都是會感到「不舒服」的了，為何不放手一試，選擇過你想過的呢？

別過份抱怨，我發現愈抱怨得少的人，愈接近他們的理想生活。

若你這一刻失衡了，那就趕快找回你的平衡點，人生都是不停的做著這動作的了。「失衡，平衡」。

愛的力量很大，沒有愛，就沒有現在的所有。

看到這文章的人，和我的追蹤者，都要跟你跟分享愛。

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你好，黎堅惠小姐。Hello Winifred.

黎堅惠，一個我從中學已經聽過的名字，卻從未想過要去了解的一個時裝人。讀時裝，卻嫌時裝，我的確是個怪人（以前）。

兩年前，參加了Milk X Monthly Magazine的面試，十分之有幸被選中，也十分之有幸跟那位姓黃的先生談了一席話（因為他是interview我的人，大概是director吧），我告訴他我喜歡new age, 靈性的東西，也有時裝背景，他說，我令他想起黎堅惠。我沒有太注意到，但當時的印象中，黎堅惠小姐應該已回了天堂，而我深怕黃先生跟她甚有交情，若我追問的話，有可能會觸碰到那份情緒，所以我還是靜靜的點頭好了。

上天要你知道的，要你答允的事，你真的最好快快答應，因為，怎麼繞路，上天還是不捨得讓你納悶中死去的。

兩個月前，我又再一次聽到同一番說話，這次是由我敬愛又親愛的靈媒朋友說的，而她，也曾經為黎堅惠小姐服務過，我朋友說：「很有趣！你令我想起一位很尊敬的客人，你們的東西很相像。但她已回到天堂，她的名字是黎堅惠。」除了波是圓的之外，其實，世事都是圓的。我不可以否認。

於是，兩個月後的今天，我快把自己納悶死的情況下，動了動我修長又懶過鬼的手指，於google打了黎堅惠這三個字，開始了的閱讀故人的旅程。

不知怎的，鼻子就是酸了，是他人的文筆太好？還是故人太感人呢？我知道我是太感性的，有時。

很美麗的靈魂，她書的封面，我也很有印象，不過當時的我太古板，眨眨眼就走過了。

她說：

「青春不在於皮光柔滑，而在於隨心所欲，去尋找屬於自己的真善美」

「不會想回港可有工作，不會想眼前那人會不會長久，just live for the moment，為一時衝動而活」


人，活著活著，很容易就忘了其實生命真的得來不易，我也忘了這一點。卻，上天不願世人痛苦，永遠走來提醒我們。聽到上天敲門的人，是有福的人，是願意為生活而改變的人。我是其中一個。

她的網站還在：http://www.winifredlai.com/

感恩這無意中的靈感，要好好的記著。

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咖啡與人-Coffee and People

咖啡 與 人

社區文化  

小社區文化，由每一家每一户，日復日共同建立。

每走到一間店子或鐵皮檔，大家都以最熟悉的聲音親善地打招呼，停下來寒喧幾句，

或輕輕點頭示好，有時候有一句又沒一句的對答，互相打發時間，有時候各有各忙，

那是鄰里關係。今天我問你借糖，後天到你向我借燈泡，這亦鄰亦友的關係，大概連

他們自己也低估了。以往的店子，一開張就做到百年歸老，所以說，由鄰里變成朋友

這說法不是誇張。小社區文化，就是這樣默默的建立起來，沒有規舉去導從，也沒有

條約去約束，一切都是那發自內心的人情味。

記憶流傳  

若你只可以儲存一個故事，你會將甚麼事情存檔呢？

人，物，事總有消失的一天，卻記憶永存。我們腦袋有自動存檔備份功能，因為重要，

所以儲存，也因為重視，所以流傳這記憶。上一輩的人，喜歡坐在一起暢談當年往事，

不管說了幾多遍，每一遍都是繪形繪聲，一切都像是昨天剛發生的。

這就是他們那個年代的記憶存體模式－你忘記了這段落，他為你補上你忘記的。

而這些大大小小的故事，大概就這樣的傳到後幾代去，而一切都像是昨天剛發生的。

若繁華令應該被記著的流失，那就讓記憶不住的重生。

咖啡文化  

咖啡與人

咖啡這文化的奇妙之處就是－無心插柳地把人們重新的聯系在一起。

咖啡看似是新時代的產物，卻擁有著舊時代的情懷。人們因為咖啡而同聚在一個空間，

因為咖啡而打開了第一個話題（甚麼正在展開第二第三個話題）），一切都由咖啡而

發生，那正是舊時代的茶樓和茶餐廳的翻版，不需要特別的開場白，就是簡單的一個拉

花，咖啡杯或不小心聽進耳的說話，人們就可以自然的談起話來。

那是萍水相逢的，所以來得自然，沒有計算也沒有花巧。

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You are being heard

Prayer is always got answered when you really pray with love.

I pray in heart in the hospital, I said- Please please please let the doctor see me now because I do not want to stay here anymore.

2 second later I heard my name, it is my turn to come into the doctor's room.

I cannot explain or share too much about how struggle am I,  keep coming back to the hospital for about 3 years,  I cannot explain so well how I feel about it.

Long story short, doctor told me that I do not have to come back anymore. I was like- OOPS!

Surely I am in a better place, even tho I don't see the ground (yet) but I know I am carried, and I know where I am gonna go.

Prayer is always got answered, when we listen.

Much love.

I need a rest.

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Just a page of the book

I think, coffee is equal to wine, it is inspiring and emotional.

咖啡如酒精，充滿啓發性和情感。

A new pages is gonna be started, it is tiny baby one step closer, and I am not rushing at all. There is fear but think deeply, it is an excitement. This is the passion have been missing for a while, and now I remember it a little piece by a little piece.

My fav one was right, clarity does not come in sudden but slowly and surely, I still have to wake up the sleeping soul, and this is what I am doing. It sounds imaginary but true to me.

I am so grateful for meeting new people, OR some people I have known for a long time but never get in touch. I know, this is the first page of the new book.

I know I am carried, and there is the ground for me, as always. Trust him and trust the universe. 

I am so happy for being myself, and nothing more important than being myself.

Much love.

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I am glad I have spent a good time with a like minded friend.

A casual chit chat, enjoy a good view, food, wine, and also a very lovely sunset (sorry I haven't make a photo).

My friend inspired me a little bit, which is- ''Let the passion drives me, be curious and be creative to life.''

What would happen if we are not creative? The answer is- You limit yourself.

What would happen if you do not do what you good at? The answer is- You go nowhere. 

What would happen if you ignore your passion? The answer is- You stuck.

What would happen if you do not curious things? The answer is- Speedy getting old.

People, girls, guys, no matter what age you are, where you are, what situation you are having, try your best to remember your faith, dream, your first place, first wish.... Do remember what you are good at, do remember ''Who you are'', constantly.

We only have one life, and we could lost it so easily.

Be romantic, be rational, be everything you can. I promise.

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